Good Morning.
I really hope everything will be just fine with you. Please don't get me wrong.All of sudden i miss our conversation. I really apologize for what had happened and never regret on what had happened to me, to us to be exact.Today i lowered my pride by sending you this email. I know you don't even care on what i want to explain and tell you. I never hate you. Huh.. might be just being selfish by ignoring your feeling and do all the things that make us apart. That's the best i believe. The truth is i never forget about you. First thing, when i opened my Lappy, your are the first person in mind.
Huh.. LOVE is really crazy even after a while , even i tried i never can't get rid of you from my mind.Huh... how can i ever forget about you.I just being hypocrite to my self all this while. What should we call this " being stupid" or " being crazy"???.
We used to shared something special, we bonded in our own way. Even we are far away. We still can sense each other feelings, we worried bout each other so much. Just want to let u know, Thank You for everything. I had fullfill my dreams. Well i had a dance group now, we on our way in making our dream sucess. I had one song that i dedicate to you , its call " superlover". ( And i'll always be your superlover). It's a catchy songs and its from my group dance. And Most prob by next year i will be in Maleysia for my show if everything well.
Look ,i know you dont even care about all this. But i put down my pride, my faithfull sworn to my girlfriend because i still and do like you.I'm not begging you to come back as Love is not a suitable words for me or in my life. It just that i need to spill my feelings towards you.You won't see me again. Not in here or in FB anymore as i'm concentrating my new life. I have to let you go.. and i need to let you go.Even its hard. I seek apologize for what had happened between you and my fellow friends. We just being a kid/ childish aren't we?. You don't felt the way i felt because you don't love me, like i do. Ha Ha.
Ambiguity makes people feel wronged
they can't find evidence of love
the right time to get closer, the right time to give up
Can't even bring up the courage to hug one another
I can only accompany you up to here
After all, there are some things that I cannot do
Surpassing friendship, not quite reaching love
It's about to rain in a faraway place
Should I cry?
Is it you or I who thinks too much?
I'm really not convinced and I start to suspect
Is the person in front of me really the same you?
Ambiguity makes people feel wronged
they can't find evidence of love
the right time to get closer, the right time to give up
Can't even bring up the courage to hug one another
Ambiguity makes people greedy
until waiting loses its meaning
I cannot bear the fact that we cannot write out an ending
Let the beauty of regret stop right here
No one is to blame. Not you, nor me, nor whoever else …maybe It's a circumstance. And since the circumstances surrounding our relationship have changed, I dnt know any mre if I can handle things the same way Ive handled them before. ur presence and your help will not matter. Being with you virtually is something that i cant never trade. when we spend time together gives me a certain kind of happiness only you can give. .I will miss you. I will miss you very, very, very much..
no this is not the end of everything. It is actually a new beginning, hopefully of a better, more beautiful friendship for the future. But I have to do this, to say goodbye to you properly. I need closure to move on. And I realize I have to move on.
I cannot hold on to something , i believe need me anymore. I would have been really nice to grow old with you…to laugh with you while reminiscing about the years that have passed…to share with you my whole life, and I would share with you yours…but I guess now is not right time for us, or we’re just not meant to be together, now or forever, I don’t really know. You deserve someone who will fully understand your needs and your personality, I guess I deserve someone who will love me like you did …it’s painful to say goodbye but even more painful to stay. We've been an adult now and i believe you know the purpose of me sending this email. Don't worry, nothing taken from you, i just need to explain my feelings towards you.And no more hiding it.
Ain, I pray for all goodness in your life. 
. I know you are a strong person that hold tight to your stuborness .
Drink warm water a lot ok, the earth it's not like it use to be. Avoid thinking of unecessary thing or you might catch your migraine.
You always be my princess, my momo... , my sugar.
Niu Nai
